This was not how I expected the last weeks to go. Laying in a hospital bed, hooked up to monitors, an IV dripping into my veins. Nurses and Drs. going in and out , questions, more questions, another ultrasound. And a great big weight on my shoulders as the Dr. informed me this would most likely be a 2 week stay. I’d like to say I took it all well. But, I’m pregnant. Very pregnant and hormonal 🙂 So there were tears. And the feeling of how is this going to go down. But most importantly, baby was happy and kicking as usual, so that was a wonderful blessing!
The next few paragraphs will include bits of my journaling I did while in the hospital, along with some photos.
day 2 ~ I’m sitting in my room at the antepartum unit, and writing in this journal that was made by some sweet volunteers, and packaged in a little bag with a pen, and some tissues. My nurse from labor and delivery, Amanda, wheeled me over. She is so sweet! I had to hug her before she left. I’m going to miss her 🙂 The thought of staying in here overwhelms me a bit, but I know it’s best for baby.
Day 3 ~ It looks gorgeous outside, but they tell me it feels cold. Missing my kiddos this morning, but they did come in last night, which was great! And Dale is coming down to see me at lunch, and bringing me food 🙂 He’s been doing such a great job, but I know he misses not having me at home. The Dr. was in again today, and says if there are no changes till Monday, I can probably go home!Poor hubby is exhausted 🙂 Notice the treat he brought me 🙂 These two fought over being in bed with me. Looks like I lost 🙂
Day 4 ~ Today felt a bit long because I had no visitors. Dale was going to come down with the children, but family was coming to mulch for us. It makes me feel humbled, but also blessed!! I heard the lullabies playing at least 4 times today. They play them whenever a baby is born. I’m praying for a good night of sleep. Last night I couldn’t get comfortable between baby moving and restless legs. And there was a sweet baby that cried most of the night. I was wishing I could take a turn with him/her since I couldn’t sleep anyway 🙂I could always hear the helicopter when it came and left. And sometimes I caught a quick glimpse of it.My view from my window. And that’s my family walking down there 🙂My bedside table.. Strawberry pie from my sis. Oh so yummy! 🙂
Day 5 ~ For some reason, I didn’t journal this day. Dale brought the children down around 10:30, and they ate lunch with me there. I think this was also the day I was paid a visit from one of my labor and delivery nurses. Jill is so nice, and we visited for close to 1/2 hr. I love how great the nurses here are! I also had a nurse named Jenna, which was funny 🙂 And we talked about our families, and being moms, etc. These nurses work hard, and should be appreciated for all of their hard work!
Day 6 ~ Tuning into the church service, and the tears just come again. The song “Blessed Jesus hold my hand, I need Thee every hour”, speaks into my heart.
And the devotional, whether you are going through a mountain or valley, “We’ve got the Power in the name of Jesus!” I admit this week felt like a bit of a valley for me, even though I have so much to be grateful for! So through my occasional discouragement and tears, I can’t help but think of all the good things I have been blessed with this week.
- The wonderful husband God gave me, who supports me and loves me well.
- My sweet children and their big smiles when they come in the door to see me.
- Family, and the way they pitch in. Food, babysitting, doing laundry, mulching our many flowerbeds, visiting me, and so many more things behind the scenes. Loving and supporting us.
- Friends, and the way they care. Text messages, calls, words of encouragement.
- Many prayers on our behalf.
- The kindest nurses. Their cheery faces, waiting on me like a queen :), doing unpleasant things with a smile. They blessed my heart! I feel like I learned to know some of them, and will miss them when I leave.
- The meal delivery people, so sweet and cheerful. One guy sang me a song when he heard my name 🙂 I’m sure most of you heard the song, “Jolene, Jolene” 🙂 He just loved singing 🙂 And he even said he’ll pray for me and baby.
- Drs. that care, cleaning ladies keeping my room clean, the security guard that loved the Lord, and encouraged Dale and I as parents as he escorted us through the hospital to the place we needed to be.I know I’m forgetting some things, and the list could go on 🙂 Discouragement may come to us at times, but no matter what we face, God is there! He shoulders our load, and encourages us, even with details that may seem small.This photo was on Sunday, my last full day there. I was able to get a wheelchair ride outside, feel that warm sun on my face, sit by a beautiful garden with a lovely water feature. Our children fought over who was pushing me, ran around sticking their hands in the water, and generally acted like they don’t get out much 🙂 But they enjoyed it, I know that! My inlaws came to visit too, and my mother-in-law must have read my mind, because she brought me a donut 😉 Soo yummy!Now I’m home, and it feels so nice! We have been abundantly blessed with meals for this week of not doing too much! And today my sisters and mom come to help make jelly. Baby is currently behaving, and so we continue to pray and wait 🙂 Thanks again for all of you that blessed our lives! We are grateful, and so very blessed!